When I First Died – Lyrics & Story
When I First Died – Lyrics & Story
Context & Origin
When I First Died is based on an actual event. This song grew from a reflective moment in 2018. It recounts a personal near-death experience with quiet observation rather than dramatization. The lyrics explore life, death, and the subtle clarity that can follow extreme experiences, presented in a restrained, introspective tone.
This article written for the Song category of posts is meant to complement the Journal posts with the inclusion of song lyrics.
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Lyrics
Was hard to walk but still I tried
I stumbled out into the street
No one was there when I first died
My heart was cold and had no beat
Streetlights blur, the night stands still
The world moves on, but I do not
Soon medical assistance came
They said they felt there was no hope
I was the only one to blame
Much sadness made it hard to cope
When I first died, the night was calm
No voices left to call my name
I crossed a line with open eyes
And nothing after felt the same
Adrenaline they had to use
They stabbed it deep into my heart
I did not have much more to lose
My world had fallen all apart
A sudden spark, a violent sound
Life forced back into my chest
They brought me back but were surprised
And did not think I would pull through
A miracle they emphasized
The poison was too much for two
I don’t remember choosing life
It chose me when I was not there
Between the dark and broken light
I learned how thin the margin is
When I first died, the night was calm
No voices left to call my name
I crossed a line with open eyes
And nothing after felt the same
More about When I First Died
Post When I First Died provides more details, links and info about this song. Direct downloads are available at Bandcamp.
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